Good Friends and Hope
It is always nice to have good friends. I had two separate instances today of some really great friends stepping in and working with me to get a handle on my currently challenging life. I am facing some formidable decisions and/or life changes that are quickly coming to a head.
On one hand, as of about 30 minutes ago my company is the real deal. Dealing with payroll, taxes, expenses, all the goodies that go along with a new and quickly growing company are all mine to deal with. I have some great friends that make up the management of said company and a great mentor to help me make the right decisions. My friends and I got together tonight and nailed down what it actually takes to make us successful. The great news, it’s not very far off. The bad news, there is still a lot of hard work to be done, maybe not such bad news after all…
On the other hand, I’ve had some very challenging times in my personal life. I’m not sure how much to blog here because of who I know is reading… For everyone’s sake I’ll just say I’ve never been more sure about the things I believe in life, but never less sure how to talk to certain people about it, ambiguous I know… I have a confidant, someone who is walking a similar path, and we strive to keep eachother moving in a positive direction and not get hung up on some negative things we see and experience around us. I’m not going to go into much more detail at this moment because there are a lot of things that I haven’t gotten straight in my head just yet. I’ve had a major shift in my mindset and worldview over the last 9 months or so, and I can say nothing has been more liberating or frightening. To question one’s own thinking and to take a hard look and re-evaluate everything you believe is fraught with peril, but it is a journey that I willingly and consciously chose to embark upon, and one that I will continue to travel the rest of my days. I have never been happier and more at peace with myself in that regard. The cause for concern arises in the changes (if any?) that could result.
I’m sure the ambiguity is annoying but I’m not ready to come completely clean. More details will trickle out over the next few months as I am able to process everything in my chaotic brain.
Lastly, in my last post I told a terrible, terrible lie… I said I would blog every day, I knew when I said it that it was a lie, but still posted it anyways. I want to take this opportunity to repudiate that statement and say that I will be practical about the blogging thing. I’ll blog when I feel strongly enough to do so.
See you next time…